The Storm

You cannot ignore the bass thats runnin through your pours.
Those are not goosebumps, thats me lookin for a way to leave you.
My every breath seeking an escape, you see, you can't be real, a human being cannot be capable of doing so much wrong. You must be a figment of my imagination, a light at the end of the tunnel, dark, so dark that its irremovable like black on skin.

However, must I add, the nights we spent were pure bliss. Euphoricly, you just made me make up a word to describe our time together. Picnics on the grass, the smell of flowers while I fed you strawberries still lingers in my mind like a first date. I'd pick you up from work, we'd have lunch.. On fridays I'd take you out, we would walk down these mean streets like the baddest couple, sometimes I could feel yur heart beat were so close. I wud lay on my bed sunday evenings and feel yur hands preparing my back for the next long week of work. I'd kiss you, I'd make love to you and hold your head with my hand and stare listlessly at your eyes while you looked through mine. I loved you....

You remember when I told you I didnt want to do this, only if I was sure....
Only if you were real...
And then the calm came, you assured me, you were the caretaker of my heart...
What I didnt realize is that
The calm always comes before the storm.

Written 12/13/2007

If You Have The Key....

The key to my soul... here it is

For some reason, this picture speaks 1000 words to me. After all, the simplest things are often the most complex in life.

Melody Gave Me ZZzzZzZzz's

Fell asleep listenin to 808's...

There comes a time in your life, actually there are many times in your life where you have a vision or as some like to call it an 'epiphany'. And sometimes it takes the power of music to help you see clearer or a certain song can bring certain feelings or emotions out that you held inside for awhile. People are so caught up in other people's bullshit that they don't take the time to clean up the shit in their life... A heartbreak is a true test, think about it!
You've all been there, you love someone and they completely abliterate your heart.. what then?
Or you argue with your mom or dad about your lifestyle and next thing you know something happens to them (GODFORBID). When your heart is broken, that can easily be your most fragile state as a human being. The cold, the loneliness, the migranes, the emptiness, the insecurity...
The 1 thing that we all have to keep in mind is that every set back is a set up for a come back. No one picks up the pieces of your heart but you! You clean up the mess that was left behind while trying not to look back.


A heartbreak can change your life for the better or for the worse, it can even change people.
Its unimaginable what it can do to you. Listening to See You In My Nightmares when I'm in the zone brought out the grimmey part of me. That song lets me see that, like what Yey felt was that he knew he was too much & too great to feel that way, but he knew that he would still dream of her and dream of the ugly things that haunted his life. A broken heart never forgets...
You will always see that in your nightmares!

Maintaining yourself happy and always knowing who you are and where you come from can make a heartbreak a simple memory.

Lady Dee is a Terrorist

Fell in love with a blonde bombshell
She is a terrorist... She Hiroshima/Nagasaki'd my heart.
Tears turned to dust like a mushroom cloud.
Nightmares become the norm, dreams are no more. What is there to dream of?
I dreamt of happiness. Yes, the white picket fence, red door, blue shutters... My dream was to fulfill her dream.
You never realize someone else's dream IS your own personal torment.
It's like a gift, you're excited to grab it & you fein to possess it and you anxiously unwrap it only to find out
The box is filled with nothing...but I told her let's fill it!
Lets take this empty, hollow cave and turn it into an Oasis...
Her soul was already commited to my demise.
I tried to have composure, I sealed my eyelids as if they were envelopes so it wouldn't rain, but out of my eyes came thunderstorms.
I said I HATE YOU from the top of my heart because somewhere in the bottom I know that I love you.
So, like a terrorist, she packed her bags, got by my weak security system, and flew my feelings into ablivia!
Femme fatale... her work was done, executed perfectly, without error.
Lady Dee is a terrorist.


BY VIRGILIO MENDEZ

WORKING 6AM-9PM!!!

NOT COOL!!!

<--- EXACTLY HOW I FEEL RITE NOW

Just where my mind is: leads me...
My mini boardwalk in the sky helps me mellow out as this has been a hell of a week! I love coming here to vent and blast my headphones into lyrical utopia. I can feel the wind as it whispers and tells me a secret, he sun beating down, and the flashiest city on earth makes a nuance out of it's daily routine. Peace you can find here, the only peace I've known.